It's hard to not get depressed about my body or my weight, especially since I've been working out continuously for eight weeks now. Continuously meaning 4-6 times a week of exercise and I don't feel like I've made much progress at all. My weight has dropped maybe a pound or two but that's about it. I'm not really sure what to do...
Terry tells me I need to use my depression as my motivation. It's true that I tell myself to just keep working and soon enough it'll make a difference. Terry says he's seeing the changes in my body but when I measure myself there isn't much difference at all.
The worst part is, I need clothes to wear. I stupidly put my maternity clothes away shortly after I had my baby thinking I wouldn't need it any more but the truth is, my boobs are so huge right now none of my clothes fit. Either the stomach sticks out in a really unattractive way, or my pants are so tight in the thighs that I can barely pull them up to my butt. I look so terrible in clothing right now I'd rather walk around naked. I think I need to pull out the maternity stuff so that I can at least stop wearing the same thing over and over again.
I didn't realize it would be so hard but I didn't lose weight quickly last time either so I'm not sure why my expectations are so high this time. Probably because I'm a little more experienced having already done it once before but it doesn't seem to make the weight loss any easier.
I started this blog because I want to document my journey and be able to keep track of my progress. Figure out what works and what doesn't and what I like and don't like. It's going to be the beginning of a journey, because ultimately I want to create a body I never had before, a small and leaner body with no more trouble spots. It might be impossible but it's still something I'm interested in working towards.
So, what are you waiting for? Let's get started on this weight loss journey together. Slowly but surely, one day at a time, let's see where this journey takes us.
